Motivation is Absent

So, um, still trying to get back on schedule and everything, and so I visited Holly Black's LJ today. And I saw a post about a month old, about a certain video game.

So yay, a video game for Spiderwick to be out for Feb next year!

Unfortunately, this means I've gotta add a page to Dark Glamour and pack it fulla content. I don wanna do work! Wah! *fwumps* I gotta get some people to help me. :(

It's a sad thing when you're too lazy to even be a proper fan of something.

Srsly, though, life has been giving me a lotta hate lately. I can't find the motivation to work on my book, work on my site, update Dark Glamour, work on Delphi, set up Ace of Arts, or kick E1 out of hiatus. I barely felt like posting my complaints on this thing. Does anyone even read this thing?

But yeah, all I feel like doing lately is eating, sleeping, and doodling on notebooks. It's sad when you can't even go and work on personal projects because all the homework and stuff are eating up your motivation.

At this rate, I might have to put DG into hiatus too, but I really don't want to. I owe those books too much.

I'm so masochistic because it hurts like freaking hell to wallow in self-pity and to kick myself for lack of motivation. It hurts ~~~

So I cooked up some excuses for myself. They are stupid and make me hate myself even more. I'm not writing anything because my bookie with all the writings is yet to be unpacked. I'm not working on my site because I'm saving it for a computer project. I'm not working on Delphi because SmackJeeves's server hates me and refuses to put links on the same line. I'm not working on Ace of Arts because we're still finalising who's gonna do what. I'm not working on E1 because it's fine in hiatus. I'm not working on DG because nobody goes there anyway.

Oh gosh, I'm so mentally tired. This is why established authors/artists/webmasters always get things done faster: they have mobs of fans kicking them into gear all the time. I only have me, and all I do is yell at myself to no avail.

Sometimes I hate myself for working on too many things at once.

D:

Tablet Love

AYE. LURVE. MAI. TABLET.

Seriously, I just went and uploaded onto DeviantART all the stuff I did over the summer. It's a lot of stuff. But anyway, they're all semi-decent. Tower of Delphi got two favs as soon as I uploaded it, which is awesome, cuz that's the first time that's happened. So yeah.

Anywayz... Chyn and Manda and me have decided to start an art auction on Gaia. It's gonna run til just before Christmas break. I'm typing out all the stuff I need to set it up before I actually do it, but yeah. I finished vectoring a logo for it. I really like vectoring. You get such neat crisp lines. It's awesome for shapes and stuff.

But yeah. School started and stuff. You know how teachers see everything, but sometimes they don't bother mentioning it and pretend to not notice? Well my new math teacher doesn't do that. She'll face the other direction and tell you to stop doing whatever. It's friggin annoying. Who the frig has enough concentration to last 75 hours without tuning out for a bit. And I was planning to work of Delphi during class, too.

Speaking of Delphi, I finally finished the pic of Jeanette I'm planning to use as the warning page. Yes, that's right, my comic is gonna be violent enough to merit a warning page. And yet I leave my comics out on the index page. Psh. Seriously, I don't want some little kid to be drawn to my comic cuz of the title (Delphi - Little Children). I've nothing against them, really, but people should read things designed for their own audiences. But yeah. I finally finished that, and I realized that I never decided on whether to spell her name with two N's or one. But I decided on one because that's how I spelt it on the piece.

Return of the Rosefae

So yeah, you'd think I'have something interesting to say after a 2-mo absence, but no. All I have is a stupid video I found on the net that was mildly humorous. So there.

Things that happened these past two months:
- Went back to China
- Won essay contest and got 2000 RMB
- Got a WACOM tablet
- Visited family
- Shopped
- Rented out flat
- Came back to Can
- School started
- Got sick and threw up

There now. Love me. More on junk later.